My husband
Allow me to go back in history since not everybody is updated with the background of this story, don´t worry I won´t go way back...just a bit.
Last year,January or February, not sure.I am praying and God tells me. "Bea, I am real worried for the girls at church. It is like they are doubting that I can get them a husband and now they are starting to look for one on their own...they can get badly hurt that way." I agreed, and said I was willing to intercede. "oh, no! I had something else in mind..."
so half an hour later I am standing in front of the group. (They were taking some Bible courses)And I tell them that after my divorce God had taken my husband´s place. Up to that moment I had had no real need for a husband because God had done such an awesome job. But that we were both concerned for them and that we had decided to do something...I was going to take my wedding ring off (God had given me one) and that I was going to start walking on waters of faith, asking for a husband. For I truly believed God loved us as women, and as His little girls. And that I was sure that He was going to move heaven and earth to give us a husband. A good husband.
I took off my ring as I prayed "Lord, I am out of the boat, I trust you. I believe you are sending angels out for us. You know where my husband is, and you are going to make our paths meet...Lord, the water is cold, hold me tight"
The water was cold and outside it was a dark night. The water was still and that emptiness filled me. Hadn´t felt that lonely in such a long time! Hard
But what most everybody doesn´t know is that the guy I liked had just told me, a couple of days before, he wasn´t interested in me!!!!
Obedience. 100% obedience...can be tough.
Time goes by. Not a normal time. A hard time..a year of facing God. But out of grace I made it out alive. The wind of spring starts to blow, the cold winter starts to die out.
Not long ago God woke me up. The full moon was shinning in such splendor! I just opened the curtains and stayed there watching such beauty!!! It was just such a special night. Under the moon the stars were shinning! The stars, filling the sky with their music!
And suddenly, I felt my feet...I was walking on the ocean. God and I talked a bit. He reminded me of that day, that prayer, that cold ocean, that empty night... "Father, it can´t possibly be the same path! It just doesn´t match! That place was dark and cold! And empty...I didn´t like it at all! But Lord, this, this is just so special...I could stay here for ever!"
And then I heard Him whistling.
That was His answer!
The kind of whistling you make when you are finishing a job and are all content.
And faith filled the air and my heart.
I just couldn´t help thinking...what are the finishing touches, Lord? What are you doing in his heart? and mine...
You might guess that I overslept next morning...had to call a cab to go to school!!! uupps!
So, I am talking about this with a dear friend and she mentions that she has a list of conditions he must meet before she aproves of him. And I answer: "Look, if the guy (understanding who I am) dares to ask me to marry him...I will say yes...no other condition attached!"
And as I said this a thought came by "Boy, Lord! you sure got yourself into a tight spot!!!!"
I mentioned it to my friend. But long after our talk I continued to tease Father... I just couldn´t keep from giggling and poking on Him.
"Father, I am 41, divorced with 3 teenage sons, lets say those are no real problems...I am a prophet.. and I am pregnant (I carry a revival in my womb)...now Lord, tell me...just who would like to marry a woman like that?"
I was honest. A year back I had no real understanding of who I was nor of my calling so I didn´t see it such a hard task...but now, understanding the above...well... I chuckled, "God I know the word impossible appeals to you..but, I truly think you´ve over done it this time!"
I brushed my teeth and somehow managed to mutter "one thing is to open the red see, or to stop the sun...but this, God You are out of your mind!"
Just before I opened my Bible I managed a quick prayer:
"Dearest God, I sometimes make a promise and then realize that I won´t be able to keep it. If you want to back out, I understand. And don´t worry about the others, as years go by if anybody should ask I will just say: blame it on me, I didn´t obey."
Still with a smile on my face I opened my Bible and read:
BEING FULLY AWARE THAT WHATERVER GOD
HAS PROMISED HE IS ABLE ALSO TO PERFORM.
ROM.5:21
I blushed.
The whole heavens were filled with laughter.
The saints, the cherubins, the angels, and of course..God.
He always gets the last laugh.
I blushed.
I swallowed hard.
I stopped hearing the laughs as a thought hit me hard:
God you are serious!! There is such a guy!!!
wow...he must be quite a guy!!!
Now, I pray for him each night.
Last year,January or February, not sure.I am praying and God tells me. "Bea, I am real worried for the girls at church. It is like they are doubting that I can get them a husband and now they are starting to look for one on their own...they can get badly hurt that way." I agreed, and said I was willing to intercede. "oh, no! I had something else in mind..."
so half an hour later I am standing in front of the group. (They were taking some Bible courses)And I tell them that after my divorce God had taken my husband´s place. Up to that moment I had had no real need for a husband because God had done such an awesome job. But that we were both concerned for them and that we had decided to do something...I was going to take my wedding ring off (God had given me one) and that I was going to start walking on waters of faith, asking for a husband. For I truly believed God loved us as women, and as His little girls. And that I was sure that He was going to move heaven and earth to give us a husband. A good husband.
I took off my ring as I prayed "Lord, I am out of the boat, I trust you. I believe you are sending angels out for us. You know where my husband is, and you are going to make our paths meet...Lord, the water is cold, hold me tight"
The water was cold and outside it was a dark night. The water was still and that emptiness filled me. Hadn´t felt that lonely in such a long time! Hard
But what most everybody doesn´t know is that the guy I liked had just told me, a couple of days before, he wasn´t interested in me!!!!
Obedience. 100% obedience...can be tough.
Time goes by. Not a normal time. A hard time..a year of facing God. But out of grace I made it out alive. The wind of spring starts to blow, the cold winter starts to die out.
Not long ago God woke me up. The full moon was shinning in such splendor! I just opened the curtains and stayed there watching such beauty!!! It was just such a special night. Under the moon the stars were shinning! The stars, filling the sky with their music!
And suddenly, I felt my feet...I was walking on the ocean. God and I talked a bit. He reminded me of that day, that prayer, that cold ocean, that empty night... "Father, it can´t possibly be the same path! It just doesn´t match! That place was dark and cold! And empty...I didn´t like it at all! But Lord, this, this is just so special...I could stay here for ever!"
And then I heard Him whistling.
That was His answer!
The kind of whistling you make when you are finishing a job and are all content.
And faith filled the air and my heart.
I just couldn´t help thinking...what are the finishing touches, Lord? What are you doing in his heart? and mine...
You might guess that I overslept next morning...had to call a cab to go to school!!! uupps!
So, I am talking about this with a dear friend and she mentions that she has a list of conditions he must meet before she aproves of him. And I answer: "Look, if the guy (understanding who I am) dares to ask me to marry him...I will say yes...no other condition attached!"
And as I said this a thought came by "Boy, Lord! you sure got yourself into a tight spot!!!!"
I mentioned it to my friend. But long after our talk I continued to tease Father... I just couldn´t keep from giggling and poking on Him.
"Father, I am 41, divorced with 3 teenage sons, lets say those are no real problems...I am a prophet.. and I am pregnant (I carry a revival in my womb)...now Lord, tell me...just who would like to marry a woman like that?"
I was honest. A year back I had no real understanding of who I was nor of my calling so I didn´t see it such a hard task...but now, understanding the above...well... I chuckled, "God I know the word impossible appeals to you..but, I truly think you´ve over done it this time!"
I brushed my teeth and somehow managed to mutter "one thing is to open the red see, or to stop the sun...but this, God You are out of your mind!"
Just before I opened my Bible I managed a quick prayer:
"Dearest God, I sometimes make a promise and then realize that I won´t be able to keep it. If you want to back out, I understand. And don´t worry about the others, as years go by if anybody should ask I will just say: blame it on me, I didn´t obey."
Still with a smile on my face I opened my Bible and read:
BEING FULLY AWARE THAT WHATERVER GOD
HAS PROMISED HE IS ABLE ALSO TO PERFORM.
ROM.5:21
I blushed.
The whole heavens were filled with laughter.
The saints, the cherubins, the angels, and of course..God.
He always gets the last laugh.
I blushed.
I swallowed hard.
I stopped hearing the laughs as a thought hit me hard:
God you are serious!! There is such a guy!!!
wow...he must be quite a guy!!!
Now, I pray for him each night.
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