signs and wonders of the Most High God
TO THE NATIONS AND PEOPLES OF EVERYLANGUAGE,
WHEREVER THEY DWELL ON EARTH: ABUNDANT PEACE!
IT HAS SEEMED GOOD TO ME TO PUBLISH
THE SIGNS AND WONDERS WHICH THE MOST HIGH GOD
HAS ACCOMPLISHED IN MY REGARD.
DANIEL 3:98
I shall attempt to publish the signs and wonders which the Most High God has accomplished in my regard..."God, where do I find the words?"
I lost a revival- I could put it in plural, but will assume only my part of the blame.
I had two options, get really busy in the ministry and act as if nothing had gone wrong or I could listen to God.
Out of God´s amazing grace, I chose to listen to God.
I lost a revival. Does it matter? I have learned so much out of such an experience...maybe it was in the initial plan of God...
IT WAS NOT.
A prophet came and told me: "it seems to me you are going throught the pain of having lost a child"...how little did he know (prophets only see that which God allows them to see).
Yes, I had lost a child and its name was revival. The visitation many were waiting for was postponed. Instead of life, death took its toll.
I could not believe my eyes as I saw death making progress in the midst of people whom I deeply love. some facing physical death, others emotional death, spiritual death...death in their family relationships....death, death death.
I wanted to interceede, to stand on the gap. God said: Don´t you dare, you are impure!
His anger filled the air.
I was lost. Had no clue as what to do.
All my life in time of anguish I had sought God..
now, God himself said: NO.
FORTY DAYS of God´s wrath.
I did not pray. I just bowed down before Him...every breath in pain.
Was this part of God´s initial plan?
NO
Jesus went to the cross so I would not have to face the wrath of God...THIS WAS NOT PART OF THE INITIAL PLAN...it may break your doctrine beliefs, you may say it is impossible for me to have gone throught the wrath of God, because I am a firm believer of the beauty of the work done on The Cross.
Sorry, if it does not match up with your doctrine.
I was in the midst of the wrath of God.
and I am 100% sure that I should be dead.
How upset was THE JUDGE?
So you get an idea, even the Holy Spirit was quiet
Even Jesus was quiet.
Nobody argued. Nobody dared speak up.
Speak up? what could I possibly say?
"Forgive me" and "mercy" were words that came to my mouth AFTER the forty days...DURING the forty days I did not, I DID NOT dare speak...I could barely breath.
After the forty days, I knew I would live. But I had to see the destruction that surrounded me. Death in my relationship with my boys. Death in the lives of the young people at church. "My children" facing death, confusion, disolusion... many felt it, they felt the change in the spiritual atmosphere but were not sure of what had happened.
It was then, when I saw their pain and knew I had been granted life that I got the strength to pray:
"Forgive me, have mercy!"
and that was my prayer for the next ten months.
God´s anger was not appeased. I had to draw near Him in the midst of His fire...of His wrath.
What motivated me to do something like that?
My children, my own three boys and my spiritual children. The power of a mother´s love.
I could not go on living, seeing them walking in death. They were created to fly! They are so very dear, so very special...I did not want to see them crawl all their life!
I know that when I drew near God in His wrath, heaven stood still.
I know all angels thought "she has gone mad!Certainly now she will be killed"
You may think I am exagerating. I am not, sometimes even the Holy Spirit whispered: "you had better withhold"... a mother´s love...I could NOT withold!
I drew near God, with only one prayer.
"Forgive me ...mercy for my children...mercy,
mercy, mercy God"
Every day as I drew near God, He would discipline me. He poured out His fire. He showed the deceit in my heart. Anger filled His eyes all the time.
I would look down in shame.
This was no joke.
A quick "forgive me and look at the cross" type of prayer, was not enough. (sorry if this disrupts your theological trainning)
Out of grace, I marched on. I drew near every day. "I must touch God...I must draw near..."
"Lady, you are insane!" my angel said.
"My children...they need God´s mercy...they need God´s grace...I cannot go back to life without touching God..."
Every single day that I drew near God during those 10 months, I knew my life was in high risk. I was attempting against my own safety, against my own life.
What would I want life and safety for...if my boys were half dead?
the ten months finished. A season´s change.
God moving with favor over my beloved!!
There is hope. There is hope.
Five months have gone by after the ten months finished. Now it is spring. New, tiny leaves are showing. Little by little I get letters of my kids, each one reflecting a new breeze.
God moving with favor over my beloved.
There is hope! I must press on...God is moving with favor over my beloved. There is hope, life is springing forth! I must press on...
IT HAS SEEMED GOOD TO ME TO PUBLISH THE SIGNS
AND WONDERS WHICH THE MOST HIGH GOD HAS
ACCOMPLISHED IN MY REGARD.
May the God who is God receive all honor and glory!
For He alone is merciful.
He is a merciful God.
WHEREVER THEY DWELL ON EARTH: ABUNDANT PEACE!
IT HAS SEEMED GOOD TO ME TO PUBLISH
THE SIGNS AND WONDERS WHICH THE MOST HIGH GOD
HAS ACCOMPLISHED IN MY REGARD.
DANIEL 3:98
I shall attempt to publish the signs and wonders which the Most High God has accomplished in my regard..."God, where do I find the words?"
I lost a revival- I could put it in plural, but will assume only my part of the blame.
I had two options, get really busy in the ministry and act as if nothing had gone wrong or I could listen to God.
Out of God´s amazing grace, I chose to listen to God.
I lost a revival. Does it matter? I have learned so much out of such an experience...maybe it was in the initial plan of God...
IT WAS NOT.
A prophet came and told me: "it seems to me you are going throught the pain of having lost a child"...how little did he know (prophets only see that which God allows them to see).
Yes, I had lost a child and its name was revival. The visitation many were waiting for was postponed. Instead of life, death took its toll.
I could not believe my eyes as I saw death making progress in the midst of people whom I deeply love. some facing physical death, others emotional death, spiritual death...death in their family relationships....death, death death.
I wanted to interceede, to stand on the gap. God said: Don´t you dare, you are impure!
His anger filled the air.
I was lost. Had no clue as what to do.
All my life in time of anguish I had sought God..
now, God himself said: NO.
FORTY DAYS of God´s wrath.
I did not pray. I just bowed down before Him...every breath in pain.
Was this part of God´s initial plan?
NO
Jesus went to the cross so I would not have to face the wrath of God...THIS WAS NOT PART OF THE INITIAL PLAN...it may break your doctrine beliefs, you may say it is impossible for me to have gone throught the wrath of God, because I am a firm believer of the beauty of the work done on The Cross.
Sorry, if it does not match up with your doctrine.
I was in the midst of the wrath of God.
and I am 100% sure that I should be dead.
How upset was THE JUDGE?
So you get an idea, even the Holy Spirit was quiet
Even Jesus was quiet.
Nobody argued. Nobody dared speak up.
Speak up? what could I possibly say?
"Forgive me" and "mercy" were words that came to my mouth AFTER the forty days...DURING the forty days I did not, I DID NOT dare speak...I could barely breath.
After the forty days, I knew I would live. But I had to see the destruction that surrounded me. Death in my relationship with my boys. Death in the lives of the young people at church. "My children" facing death, confusion, disolusion... many felt it, they felt the change in the spiritual atmosphere but were not sure of what had happened.
It was then, when I saw their pain and knew I had been granted life that I got the strength to pray:
"Forgive me, have mercy!"
and that was my prayer for the next ten months.
God´s anger was not appeased. I had to draw near Him in the midst of His fire...of His wrath.
What motivated me to do something like that?
My children, my own three boys and my spiritual children. The power of a mother´s love.
I could not go on living, seeing them walking in death. They were created to fly! They are so very dear, so very special...I did not want to see them crawl all their life!
I know that when I drew near God in His wrath, heaven stood still.
I know all angels thought "she has gone mad!Certainly now she will be killed"
You may think I am exagerating. I am not, sometimes even the Holy Spirit whispered: "you had better withhold"... a mother´s love...I could NOT withold!
I drew near God, with only one prayer.
"Forgive me ...mercy for my children...mercy,
mercy, mercy God"
Every day as I drew near God, He would discipline me. He poured out His fire. He showed the deceit in my heart. Anger filled His eyes all the time.
I would look down in shame.
This was no joke.
A quick "forgive me and look at the cross" type of prayer, was not enough. (sorry if this disrupts your theological trainning)
Out of grace, I marched on. I drew near every day. "I must touch God...I must draw near..."
"Lady, you are insane!" my angel said.
"My children...they need God´s mercy...they need God´s grace...I cannot go back to life without touching God..."
Every single day that I drew near God during those 10 months, I knew my life was in high risk. I was attempting against my own safety, against my own life.
What would I want life and safety for...if my boys were half dead?
the ten months finished. A season´s change.
God moving with favor over my beloved!!
There is hope. There is hope.
Five months have gone by after the ten months finished. Now it is spring. New, tiny leaves are showing. Little by little I get letters of my kids, each one reflecting a new breeze.
God moving with favor over my beloved.
There is hope! I must press on...God is moving with favor over my beloved. There is hope, life is springing forth! I must press on...
IT HAS SEEMED GOOD TO ME TO PUBLISH THE SIGNS
AND WONDERS WHICH THE MOST HIGH GOD HAS
ACCOMPLISHED IN MY REGARD.
May the God who is God receive all honor and glory!
For He alone is merciful.
He is a merciful God.
posted by thisfool @ 1:56 AM
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