Norway's flag

Tone writes and tells me she has opened a blog..."it is in Norwegian but the pictures are universal"
She couldn't have said it better.
I open the blog, look for the pictures. The first picture: there she is with all her teeth showing. My heart leaps for joy, my lips form a huge smile and my eyes get filled with pride. She looks well. I am glad.
Then my eyes look at the rest of the picture, and there on the table there is the Norwegian flag.
and I fall apart.
What is going on in Norway? Why does God do this to me?
"Bea, are you complaining?"
Yes.
I hate to accept it but the answer is yes. He knows how impulsive I am. He knows how hard it is for me to take one step at a time instead of just taking a huge jump. He knows that it requieres huge amount of energy for me to focus on the doing the present right in order to get to the place I am aimed at tomorrow.
so why does He do this to me?
It was a small flag on Tone's table. But now I am in tears. Why cant I be there now?
My head begins to read the reasons out loud, but I am not listening. I can only listen to my heart.
I guess it was Norway's...what was it? I don't think it would be independence day...I know they are one of the few nations in the world that has never been conquered. They are conquerors, they have never been conquered. Anyhow, they had a parade to celebrate in Australia. I saw that picture and my heart said...that is the way it is going to be..Norwegians will move all about the earth proclaiming the truth....I know it will be that way. God showed me that even before I went to Norway. He spoke to me about it as I discovered that the missionaries that had been working in the jungle had been from Norway.
The jungle...the place no one wants to go to...there Norwegians went. They have viiking blood...they will go anywhere. It will be that way again.
But now the people in Norway are discouraged and not really sure of what to do in order to get there...and me...I am in Mexico, teaching English and going to the dentist...yes, I am also doing my bit with my family...and yes, I will be ok. In His time.........AAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!
..... I will get to Norway.
just pray that I do not go insane meanwhile... ja ja ja
ps. I am apologizing to the Lord right now...