I Samuel 17:46
TODAY THE LORD WILL HAND YOU OVER TO ME;
I WILL KILL YOU AND CUT OF YOUR HEAD....
AND ALL THE WORLD WILL KNOW THERE IS A GOD IN ISRAEL.
I Samuel 17:46
Do you feel the passion? Not a passion to become king. Not a passion to impress others so that later he would get a place in the army. His passion was his friend, his God.
And you know what?
I think God laughed, the kind of laughter that you laugh when you know that you are loved...deeply loved. The kind of laughter that comes from just too much joy inside of you...you just can't keep it inside...it has to come out. And so it explodes into laughter.
We easily get lost in our aims as christians.
I lost my friendship with Jesus once...not that long ago. Oh, I heard Him alright, because our working relationship was just fine. He was the boss, I his employee. We did a good job. But our friendship...that I lost.
"Bea Gasca, one thing I have against you...you have lost your first love. And for you it might not be a big deal, but you must understand that this was the reason that I went to the cross. I paid the price so I could walk with you in the afternoons, as I did with Adam and Eve. Now you are so busy that we hardly ever talk."
Do you know why God took me to Norway? When I was there I saw that everything is done, there is nothing for me to do. Not really, His plans will be just as He has spoken them to be. So, I looked up to Him and I asked. "Why did you bring me?" and He answered "When a woman gets pregnant she runs to tell her friends. I am pregnant, I wanted to share it with my friends. You are my friend."
That was all. No other "big" deal.
I lost it. I lost it when I decided that listening to Him was really turning my life upside down. I was losing all control, and I was not sure I liked His plans. Plans way too high for me to understand.
I lost my friendship with God. When I saw that He had plans for me that others frowned upon. They did not understand.
So I stood up and turned my back on my one and only true, true friend.
"I will listen no more! This is too much! There must be a limit to Your craziness!"
I hurt my friend.
He stepped back and grew silent.
I fell into a dark, cold, and confusing season.
"My Lord! My friend! I have been such a fool!!!!
I am so sorry...I take my words back!!!
I do want to listen to you, Your deep pain included, and your concept of romance...I will sit and listen to You! When everyone is too busy, just dial my number I will stop, I will listen to you. I will BE there for you...NO MATTER WHAT....no matter what...and I will do my very best not to complain of your choice and your ways. Jesus, I will sit down and listen to you tell me about the beauty of your bride and how you yearn for your wedding day.I will listen to you, I will BE there for you. I will BE your friend...
My Lord! My friend! How I need you...I cannot possibly take another step without your smile, your laughter...your tears...I need your tears to soften my heart. I need your laughter to enlight my life. Please forgive, please forgive my anger, my frustration, but above all please forgive me for my unbelief. I laughed at you when you spoke of your bride. I called you a fool for seeing her so pretty and perfect.
My friend, I have lost you. I know that you are right. I have hurt you. Why would you care to share with me your dreams, your plans if I have mocked at them before? I have told you it was impossible, it simply could not be so.
Will you forgive me? I need you so much!"
It took a long time, before He spoke to me as a friend again. A long time.
A friendship must be taken care off. If you put shit on a plant it blooms, but never try it on a friend- it kills your friendship. And then you must start all over again.
Amazaing Grace. Amazing love.
It has been a while, but now we speak as before. We just cant wait till class is over to be together...and there is so much to share, so much to talk about...
Why did He forgive me?
I do not know.
But now and then, when we grow quiet I look at Jesus from the corner of my eyes, and I wonder on this kind of love...a love that remains NO MATTER WHAT.
I WILL KILL YOU AND CUT OF YOUR HEAD....
AND ALL THE WORLD WILL KNOW THERE IS A GOD IN ISRAEL.
I Samuel 17:46
Do you feel the passion? Not a passion to become king. Not a passion to impress others so that later he would get a place in the army. His passion was his friend, his God.
And you know what?
I think God laughed, the kind of laughter that you laugh when you know that you are loved...deeply loved. The kind of laughter that comes from just too much joy inside of you...you just can't keep it inside...it has to come out. And so it explodes into laughter.
We easily get lost in our aims as christians.
I lost my friendship with Jesus once...not that long ago. Oh, I heard Him alright, because our working relationship was just fine. He was the boss, I his employee. We did a good job. But our friendship...that I lost.
"Bea Gasca, one thing I have against you...you have lost your first love. And for you it might not be a big deal, but you must understand that this was the reason that I went to the cross. I paid the price so I could walk with you in the afternoons, as I did with Adam and Eve. Now you are so busy that we hardly ever talk."
Do you know why God took me to Norway? When I was there I saw that everything is done, there is nothing for me to do. Not really, His plans will be just as He has spoken them to be. So, I looked up to Him and I asked. "Why did you bring me?" and He answered "When a woman gets pregnant she runs to tell her friends. I am pregnant, I wanted to share it with my friends. You are my friend."
That was all. No other "big" deal.
I lost it. I lost it when I decided that listening to Him was really turning my life upside down. I was losing all control, and I was not sure I liked His plans. Plans way too high for me to understand.
I lost my friendship with God. When I saw that He had plans for me that others frowned upon. They did not understand.
So I stood up and turned my back on my one and only true, true friend.
"I will listen no more! This is too much! There must be a limit to Your craziness!"
I hurt my friend.
He stepped back and grew silent.
I fell into a dark, cold, and confusing season.
"My Lord! My friend! I have been such a fool!!!!
I am so sorry...I take my words back!!!
I do want to listen to you, Your deep pain included, and your concept of romance...I will sit and listen to You! When everyone is too busy, just dial my number I will stop, I will listen to you. I will BE there for you...NO MATTER WHAT....no matter what...and I will do my very best not to complain of your choice and your ways. Jesus, I will sit down and listen to you tell me about the beauty of your bride and how you yearn for your wedding day.I will listen to you, I will BE there for you. I will BE your friend...
My Lord! My friend! How I need you...I cannot possibly take another step without your smile, your laughter...your tears...I need your tears to soften my heart. I need your laughter to enlight my life. Please forgive, please forgive my anger, my frustration, but above all please forgive me for my unbelief. I laughed at you when you spoke of your bride. I called you a fool for seeing her so pretty and perfect.
My friend, I have lost you. I know that you are right. I have hurt you. Why would you care to share with me your dreams, your plans if I have mocked at them before? I have told you it was impossible, it simply could not be so.
Will you forgive me? I need you so much!"
It took a long time, before He spoke to me as a friend again. A long time.
A friendship must be taken care off. If you put shit on a plant it blooms, but never try it on a friend- it kills your friendship. And then you must start all over again.
Amazaing Grace. Amazing love.
It has been a while, but now we speak as before. We just cant wait till class is over to be together...and there is so much to share, so much to talk about...
Why did He forgive me?
I do not know.
But now and then, when we grow quiet I look at Jesus from the corner of my eyes, and I wonder on this kind of love...a love that remains NO MATTER WHAT.
posted by thisfool @ 4:43 PM
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