now I am distracted
I get up with a clear idea: I am in Mexico, if I continue to wait to get to the countries God has talked to me about before doing anything I might never do anything (please note my lack of faith...or perhaps you had better not...)
So I make up my mind. I will write down my ideas clearly as to what to say to the leaders of the church here. And I will start to visit them. One by one. I just cannot stay still any longer and since I am not attending any church now I have the freedom to speak for myself and for God without the pressure from "my pastor" as to making him look bad. Perfect moment, I think.
But I choose to go into Yahoo instead of into Windows. God looks at me and says, you are going to get distracted. I assure Him I will not. I tell Him how good I am at handling "the situation" I will not open the letters I have gotten. I will go directly into the writing section...He teasingly says "yeah, sure...Bea, you are going to get distracted."
I ignore Him and open Yahoo. I see I have 4 letters, decide to only look at who they are from, and then decide to read...I mean...no harm can be done. I am sure I know what the letters say...
I am surprised by both.
and now I am distracted.
One is from Spain:
"Beatriz, you know you have a place at our home, we are looking forward
to having you with us for a couple of days. Let me warn you that I kiss a
lot and hug a lot so please get prepared...."
Now I am distracted.
The other letter is from Norway:
"Bea, God is really excited with Norway.... on my way back to Oslo it was raining and
the clouds were black. But then the clouds opened and the light shone through..and
God told me that this is what is going to happen in Norway..."
Now I am distracted.
I am gasping for air once more....
A friend just wrote complaining on the weather in Norway...and I have wonderful weather here... why would I care to go to Norway?
Isn't God near me here and now?
Yes, He is ...it is not about getting closer to God...I do not know how to explain it...but...
But I am now distracted.
Wondering a bit what God is really up to.
Wondering a bit what it will be like... and wondering why God insits so much.
Why is it important to Him?
Why does He not allow me to settle down? ...not even for some months, or weeks, or days...
My dear unsettling God,
I love you dearly and I say this with a huge smile.
I am here at your command.
Let me understand your plan, and allow me to walk in it.
You were right, I am now distracted. Hard to focus in Mexico now...
Your laughter makes it all worthwhile...how I love you so.
Go ahead and unsettle me God, do not let me get comfortable, unsettle me.
I am here at your command.
Now let me see the plan, and show me the steps I must take in order to get
to where you want me to be- for I have no clue as to how to do it. =)
I love you God.
I love you tons and tons.
Thanks for unsettling me, my life has been most fun due to your unsettling ways.
Thank you Jesus for the cross. Thank you for paying the cost. I love you lots.
Amen
So I make up my mind. I will write down my ideas clearly as to what to say to the leaders of the church here. And I will start to visit them. One by one. I just cannot stay still any longer and since I am not attending any church now I have the freedom to speak for myself and for God without the pressure from "my pastor" as to making him look bad. Perfect moment, I think.
But I choose to go into Yahoo instead of into Windows. God looks at me and says, you are going to get distracted. I assure Him I will not. I tell Him how good I am at handling "the situation" I will not open the letters I have gotten. I will go directly into the writing section...He teasingly says "yeah, sure...Bea, you are going to get distracted."
I ignore Him and open Yahoo. I see I have 4 letters, decide to only look at who they are from, and then decide to read...I mean...no harm can be done. I am sure I know what the letters say...
I am surprised by both.
and now I am distracted.
One is from Spain:
"Beatriz, you know you have a place at our home, we are looking forward
to having you with us for a couple of days. Let me warn you that I kiss a
lot and hug a lot so please get prepared...."
Now I am distracted.
The other letter is from Norway:
"Bea, God is really excited with Norway.... on my way back to Oslo it was raining and
the clouds were black. But then the clouds opened and the light shone through..and
God told me that this is what is going to happen in Norway..."
Now I am distracted.
I am gasping for air once more....
A friend just wrote complaining on the weather in Norway...and I have wonderful weather here... why would I care to go to Norway?
Isn't God near me here and now?
Yes, He is ...it is not about getting closer to God...I do not know how to explain it...but...
But I am now distracted.
Wondering a bit what God is really up to.
Wondering a bit what it will be like... and wondering why God insits so much.
Why is it important to Him?
Why does He not allow me to settle down? ...not even for some months, or weeks, or days...
My dear unsettling God,
I love you dearly and I say this with a huge smile.
I am here at your command.
Let me understand your plan, and allow me to walk in it.
You were right, I am now distracted. Hard to focus in Mexico now...
Your laughter makes it all worthwhile...how I love you so.
Go ahead and unsettle me God, do not let me get comfortable, unsettle me.
I am here at your command.
Now let me see the plan, and show me the steps I must take in order to get
to where you want me to be- for I have no clue as to how to do it. =)
I love you God.
I love you tons and tons.
Thanks for unsettling me, my life has been most fun due to your unsettling ways.
Thank you Jesus for the cross. Thank you for paying the cost. I love you lots.
Amen
posted by thisfool @ 5:32 AM
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