wake from the dead
I have never wanted to be a heroe. Part of me really dreamed of having a normal life, a quiet, peaceful life.
Last year God told me He would let me chose whatever I wanted to do. I had finished that which He had assigned to me. If I would chose to get a house in Hawaii and just paint and live a slow life I could.
I will forever wonder why He said that, because I think that He knew that it was most unlikely that I would go for such a life after all He has taken me through.
So Here I am again. Praying for a mission that seems impossible, praying...I hadn´t prayed in ages...my prayers were simple mumblings. Now I just seem to rabble on, can´t seem to stop.
"Somebody must go, Lord...somebody must go...and Lord, I want to go. Just allow me to hug them, to encourage them once more. They seem so fragile, so needed for your touch...I really want you to take me"
Something has definitely changed in me. It was never like that before. I would pray, feel His pain and then I would say..."well, ok I will go, I know nobody else will and somebody must go...sigh...here I am. take me"
Not very enthusiastic, huh?
But do not point your finger at me...at least I went.
I got a letter from a girl I dearly love. She says "I lost my thirst for God"...the pain those words produced in me froze me for weeks. I tried to answer yesterday. But words just did not seem right.
Fire burns inside of me. "Lord, here I am, take me!"
This morning I woke up thinking of a specific church..."I will call the pastor later on" I thought. Now I lose all strenght to do so.
What I want to do is total madness, I want to help people who are thirsty of God fill that thirst. I do not know if there is a pastor that will allow me to do that.
But you see, that is what some people want. They want to draw close to God. And God, that God who is God makes it really rough. Suddenly He touches people so deep in the heart that they give up their perfect plans.
They start to give money to the poor, or go to visit them. They talk to people with tuberculosis, and all sort of dumb things.
For some rare reason, a Sunday morning service and a good moral life is just not enough. Not for God, He always gets to this point in which He makes it clear that He gave all and expects all in return.
Puebla is a Catholic city. The amount of people worshiping idols...and the amount of idols is large...is huge. Nobody, critizes the things that are going about. It is easy to have a god that does not demand, perhaps a little sacrifice now and then- but: A CHANGE OF LIFE?
"What is the limit of surrender to God?" another girl asked.
What will I tell them?
HE GAVE ALL, AND EXPECTS ALL.
His ways may change, He may ask some to produce money and support a missionary. He may ask others to live in a slum to reach to the poor in that area. I do not know the specific path. But I am sure that He expects all.
We want our young people to live moral lives, but not go crazy for God. We are so blind! We do not understand things at all! This world is changing, the opposite poles are gaining strenght. Evil is reaching levels of wickedness never before expressed...and good is doing the same thing. Opposites repel, and as the energy of each increases the in between zone becomes weak...you no longer can stand in between. This is what our kids are facing.
Radical devotion to God or radical devotion to rebellion to God.
What do we want?
I know what I want. I know what I will preach...but "God, who will support me?"- financially, spiritually, emotionally?... I know what we preach at churches. We preach devotion to God, but when our kids go further, when they start to pray more...when they talk about the things they have read in the Bible and confront us with such truths,AND when they suddenly discover their missionary call then we decide to cool them up a bit.
I am praying for a mission. I do not know if I will get there physically. But I have been quiet too long, have been resting too long...some of these kids have a call on their lives. Somebody must tell them:
OBEY GOD.
and somebody must tell the church:
WAKE UP! THEY HAVE A CALL!
Does that mean they don´t go to college? I do not know the detail of each life.
In my experience, some have had to leave collegue before being taken into something else, and others have had to go to collegue before being taken into something else.
Dr. Livingstone had to go to collegue, before being used by God in an awesome way in Africa.
But others got different instructions, they were called to leave their comfortable collegues behind and were taken to martirdom.
David, Joseph and Daniel were used in political power.
Jeremiah, and so many others had to settle for some bread crumbs, prision, and beatings.
Who does what? who gets what? ...God is the one to choose- not I, not us.
CHURCH WAKE UP!
CHURCH IT IS TIME TO OBEY GOD!
We have pondered on the crucifiction and the resurrection this week. This is my prayer.
"God, you who are God,
the word says that the same spirit
who woke Jesus from the dead lives in us,
God, may your spirit wake your church from the
dead. Give us real life so we can reach out,
to a dying world.
God, you called me out of my grave today,
can you call the rest of the church, too?
This I humbly and desperatly pray...
Lord, please wake up the rest of the church
today."
Last year God told me He would let me chose whatever I wanted to do. I had finished that which He had assigned to me. If I would chose to get a house in Hawaii and just paint and live a slow life I could.
I will forever wonder why He said that, because I think that He knew that it was most unlikely that I would go for such a life after all He has taken me through.
So Here I am again. Praying for a mission that seems impossible, praying...I hadn´t prayed in ages...my prayers were simple mumblings. Now I just seem to rabble on, can´t seem to stop.
"Somebody must go, Lord...somebody must go...and Lord, I want to go. Just allow me to hug them, to encourage them once more. They seem so fragile, so needed for your touch...I really want you to take me"
Something has definitely changed in me. It was never like that before. I would pray, feel His pain and then I would say..."well, ok I will go, I know nobody else will and somebody must go...sigh...here I am. take me"
Not very enthusiastic, huh?
But do not point your finger at me...at least I went.
I got a letter from a girl I dearly love. She says "I lost my thirst for God"...the pain those words produced in me froze me for weeks. I tried to answer yesterday. But words just did not seem right.
Fire burns inside of me. "Lord, here I am, take me!"
This morning I woke up thinking of a specific church..."I will call the pastor later on" I thought. Now I lose all strenght to do so.
What I want to do is total madness, I want to help people who are thirsty of God fill that thirst. I do not know if there is a pastor that will allow me to do that.
But you see, that is what some people want. They want to draw close to God. And God, that God who is God makes it really rough. Suddenly He touches people so deep in the heart that they give up their perfect plans.
They start to give money to the poor, or go to visit them. They talk to people with tuberculosis, and all sort of dumb things.
For some rare reason, a Sunday morning service and a good moral life is just not enough. Not for God, He always gets to this point in which He makes it clear that He gave all and expects all in return.
Puebla is a Catholic city. The amount of people worshiping idols...and the amount of idols is large...is huge. Nobody, critizes the things that are going about. It is easy to have a god that does not demand, perhaps a little sacrifice now and then- but: A CHANGE OF LIFE?
"What is the limit of surrender to God?" another girl asked.
What will I tell them?
HE GAVE ALL, AND EXPECTS ALL.
His ways may change, He may ask some to produce money and support a missionary. He may ask others to live in a slum to reach to the poor in that area. I do not know the specific path. But I am sure that He expects all.
We want our young people to live moral lives, but not go crazy for God. We are so blind! We do not understand things at all! This world is changing, the opposite poles are gaining strenght. Evil is reaching levels of wickedness never before expressed...and good is doing the same thing. Opposites repel, and as the energy of each increases the in between zone becomes weak...you no longer can stand in between. This is what our kids are facing.
Radical devotion to God or radical devotion to rebellion to God.
What do we want?
I know what I want. I know what I will preach...but "God, who will support me?"- financially, spiritually, emotionally?... I know what we preach at churches. We preach devotion to God, but when our kids go further, when they start to pray more...when they talk about the things they have read in the Bible and confront us with such truths,AND when they suddenly discover their missionary call then we decide to cool them up a bit.
I am praying for a mission. I do not know if I will get there physically. But I have been quiet too long, have been resting too long...some of these kids have a call on their lives. Somebody must tell them:
OBEY GOD.
and somebody must tell the church:
WAKE UP! THEY HAVE A CALL!
Does that mean they don´t go to college? I do not know the detail of each life.
In my experience, some have had to leave collegue before being taken into something else, and others have had to go to collegue before being taken into something else.
Dr. Livingstone had to go to collegue, before being used by God in an awesome way in Africa.
But others got different instructions, they were called to leave their comfortable collegues behind and were taken to martirdom.
David, Joseph and Daniel were used in political power.
Jeremiah, and so many others had to settle for some bread crumbs, prision, and beatings.
Who does what? who gets what? ...God is the one to choose- not I, not us.
CHURCH WAKE UP!
CHURCH IT IS TIME TO OBEY GOD!
We have pondered on the crucifiction and the resurrection this week. This is my prayer.
"God, you who are God,
the word says that the same spirit
who woke Jesus from the dead lives in us,
God, may your spirit wake your church from the
dead. Give us real life so we can reach out,
to a dying world.
God, you called me out of my grave today,
can you call the rest of the church, too?
This I humbly and desperatly pray...
Lord, please wake up the rest of the church
today."
posted by thisfool @ 11:28 AM
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